It has been quite some time now that i wrote something. Life
has just been chaotic the past few weeks. Days that aren’t my favorite kind and
emotions i try to block, so hard that you forget what is actually happening
around you. But in order to move on, you have got to let go what is behind you.
And there lies my biggest problem. I don’t let go of any emotions at all. If
you do me wrong once, i don’t forget. It might fade away to the back of my mind
but it is still there. And still, there is one person i just can not forget, so
it seems. And it is starting to annoy me, why do i keep roaming around in the
past? Why is it that difficult?
Journey or destination
vrijdag 11 mei 2012
zaterdag 7 april 2012
Prisje
Today was a very difficult day for me. We buried the
girlfriend of a dear colleague of mine. She lost her fight against leukemia
after 2 years of struggling. I only met her once or twice at the yearly
barbecue at work, but you could really see that that girl had spice in her. A
fighter. A very sweet and honest girl. I heard many stories about her in the
office and in the lab when Joris and i where there the whole day. The guy just
could not stop talking about her. Never gave the impression of giving up. For a
22 year old male person, that is not a simple task to fulfill. But he never
once did back down. He never gave up hope. He never complained. I can not begin
to tell you how much i respect him in every way. As i am writing this , her
picture is next to me. And in some strange way it gives me hope for everything
that is to come. Because if there is one thing that i have learned from this,
it is that you have to follow your heart, you have to do instead of plan, you
have to shout instead of whisper and you have to be who you are. No regrets, no
mistakes and for sure a whole lot of being. And i will make all of the above
happen, but today…? Today is just a sad day.
woensdag 28 maart 2012
The green grass of home
My mind is
full with ideas, stuff i want to do before i am 30, stuff i want to do now,
stuff i never want to do again. All spinning around in that upper chamber of
mine. The past few weeks have been exhausting because of that crazyness , but
now i am trying to fix everything. Bit by bit. Piece by piece. Moving is the
most time consuming thing now for me. The last year and a half i found out i am
a garden person and that is directly the main problem with were i live now. No
garden, no grass, not even a little freakin’ balcony. So time to MOVE! But then
all these questions pop up : do i live alone, do i try to move in with people
who share there house with others or back home (hahaha just kidding, no offence
mom and dad, love you very very much but living together, yeah we are over
that)? I think i will go with the second option, price-wise and you never know
with what cute guy you might end up with (a girl can dream, no?) So i have
planned appointments next week and we will see what comes out of it. All very
exciting for me….
dinsdag 20 maart 2012
Closing time
Spring
is in town, you can feel it everywhere. Everybody is laughing and eating
ice-cream. And finally i have the feeling of ‘closing time’. I can understand
that you have a difficult time wrapping your head around it. But let me try to
explain to you what, why and where. The last two years have been a rollercoster
of emotions, i have been trough every possible state a human being could
possibly go trough. If someone would have asked me where i would be or what i
would be doing at the age of 25, i would never give you the life i lead now as
an answer. Not that i am not happy now, i just never expected it to be this way.
It is weird how everything can change so fast , so extreme. I think, now, i just
stopped regretting the how and why part. It is not in the books for me to get
an answer, so why keep trying? Maybe just let go and try something (or someone)
new, no?
And
with spring in town, everything seems brighter, lighter and just more fun. So let's just enjoy....
maandag 19 maart 2012
S.O.A
Hooked.
Hooked i tell you! That is what i am. Sons of anarchy, my newest addiction.
Describtion? It is the sopranos but with a lot of leather, motorcylcles and
tattoos. Just the way i like it. One look at jax (played by charlie hunnam) and
you will understand, at least if you have boobs. But also katey sagal (yes
indeed, mrs. bundy) has a prominent role in the show as a flipped out, crazy
rageness, anger issued mom. I promise you. You will not regret starting to
watch this serie, only the people you will stop seeing because of it. (photos thanks to www.listal.com)
donderdag 15 maart 2012
Nananananana
Can
you feel it coming? It is really in the air. Spring. Sun. ‘Terraskes’ (sorry
for the non-Belgian people, but let me tell you, you are missing an important
concept in your life!). It only takes a peep outside and you know it.
Do
it. Take a look outside and tell me how you feel. Do you feel it? Do you?
maandag 12 maart 2012
Celebrate good times, come on!
What an amazing weekend it was! First of all, i
want to thank everybody who was a part of it. The good kick-off was given on
Friday evening with all my girlfriends. Man, those girls can party. There were
so many moments in the evening that i just fell in love with them all over
again. That is the reason why you can call me a friends-person, thank you very
much. And then i did not even mention the gift they got me! The limited edition
of the style scrapbook from Kipling, a beautiful black leather camerabag. It
was love at first sight. It is officially fixed to my shoulder, never taken it
of again!
Saturday was , what i would like to call, a
hangoverday. Me and my couch, all day long. That couch, we spent some nice
times together allready. And then arrived Sunday, THE day to celebrate. And how
the gods loved me yesterday. First springday of the year. We sat outside (not
behind glass, really as in ‘you take a chair and put it in your garden and ow
yeah don’t forget your sunglasses-weather’)! That combined with a good
chocolatecake , homemade by daddy dearest. You can amaging, for me it could not
get better than that.
But, today is a new day at work and i am still
a bit recovering from everything. But i could not have asked for a better
weekend. If my 25th year of life is equally good, then i can not wait for
tomorrow or the next months to come….
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